Life so Far...

As the door closed, and she heard the lock being set into place, she knew she had no other choice than to leave. And so she did, with her heart shattered into a million pieces, and the thought of crying foremost in her mind, she turned away from the house, hiding her broken heart and with a composure so plastic (she had the look that said - fine, fine, u want it this way n so i'll accept it...) when inside she was crying and screaming for the sadness in her heart brought out pain..too much pain.

She continued to walk, walk away with that fake composure for another few blocks, before finally she put it away and let out the pain and the sadness that was eating her, and she cried.

Meanwhile, he, on the other hand, watched her as she left his house. His heart also crushed. He felt (as she moved further and further away from him) that his heart was torn into tiny little pieces and the agony he felt was tremendous. But he had no other choice but to let her go. She had after all found the man of her life and it was not him. And since he still love her, this was the only way that he could think of to let her go. So that she will no longer had to depend on him, or turned to him in time of troubles and he did all this for her own good. He watched her until she disappeared out of view before he moved away from the window and with his back facing the door...leaned heavily on them.

"I'm sorry," he thought. "But i have to do this. I love you and because i love you too much...that's why i did what i just did...i can't bear the pain and jealousy when i saw you with him...it's killing me from the inside out to see you to be that close to him, that's why i have to do this to u...I'm so so sorry..."

Then he bowed his head down and cried his heart out...letting out the intense pain he felt for leaving her.

From where he was, inside his car, he saw what happened clearly, and he sort of regret what was happening...it was obvious with the two of them...they still love each other even after they decided to move separate way...and yes, he shouldn't have interfere in the first place...he should have realize it from the beginning and never let himself involved with the two of them and now the guilt ate at him, hitting him from every direction...and somehow he felt as if he was the worst kind of man in this world...

So in order to rid himself of the guilt, he step out of the car and decided to follow her. He tried his best to follow her in such a way that she wouldn't realize that he was there but it was hard for him to do it. So he did what he was not suppose to do...he followed her as close as he could and as he did get closer to her, he could hear her cry and that made him feel even worst...he wanted to grab her and just held her in his arm at that moment but he couldn't he reminded himself...it was not going to be him, it should be him...

He turned away from her for a split second, just to look away and calm himself, and that was when he heard a woman screaming, he turned to the screaming woman and what he saw almost made his heart stop entirely. He looked at the screaming woman who was pointing at...at her as she cross the road without care of looking if it was safe to cross...she was crossing the road without realising that a fast, mad-moving truck was coming at her. Shit! he thought. And without any thought of his safety, he ran, grabbed her and threw their bodies away from the danger. Luckily, they both escaped from being run down by the truck, and they only experiencing minor scratches and bruises.

"Are you ok?" He asked her. Then without care he shook her so hard. "What were you thinking of crossing the road like that?" He practically shout at her. But she didn't answer him, but instead she hug him tight and continued to cry. All his anger and frustration gone at that instant and since he could do nothing else, he hug her back, and stroke her long, soft, dark hair and mumbling sweet nonsense just to soothe her.

While in his heart, he told her this:

"I'm sorry...this is all my fault. I shouldn't have known you. I shouldn't get close to you and let you fall for me. It was the biggest mistake that could have ever happened. If only i could turn back time, i'll make sure that that time when we first met never to occur...at least this would not happened and you'll be able to be with him...the two of you together...happy, both twined together by love, till both your soul and his become one, till both your heart and his beats together as one...forever."


THE END